The Inevitable Quest...

A place for me to be me...while searching for who I want to be

Friday, January 27, 2006

Randumb Ramblings 1.27.06

*I’ve never minded moving. It usually means on to brighter things. But this is the first time I have had to move with work. I am finding out why some people don’t like to move. Although…we are moving from an office building to a house…it could be a really cool environment. It will be an adjustment though…I have had my own office for almost 4 years…and I will now be in a room with 2 other people. The good news is one of those people is GLAM JO! We could get into some trouble!

*Snack of the week: No Sugar Added Blue Bell Ice Cream. IT IS SO GOOD!!! And depending on which kind you get…it is 2-3 points per ½ cup. The real deal is more like 5-6 points per ½ cup.

*In 10 weeks I will be in EUROPE!!! I can’t wait. I am so like a kid counting down to Christmas. This will be Steve’s first trip to Europe, and I am looking forward to saying hello to the piece of my heart that resides in Florence. Just for a moment, I will feel complete! Some of the highlights of the trip will include, London, The Rhine Valley in Germany, Lake Lucerne in Switzerland, Florence, Rome, Venice, The Amalfi Coast, The French Riviera and Paris!!!

*Random AJ Fact: I like long “F” words. Like Fabulous, Facetious, Finicky, Façade, Feasible, Fascination, Ferocious, Fashionista, Fiasco, etc. I just like the way they sound in my head when I say them. And I appreciate when other people use long F words…my instant reaction is I raise my eyebrows and just say “ahhhh”. It’s silly…I know!

*After much resistance…I finally have a myspace page. I CAN’T BELIEVE IT!! I’m really not into it. But my boss wanted me to subscribe to all of our bands blogs…so alas…I am on myspace. I can’t believe I had to give in to “The Man”!!!!

*Wellness Tip: It is better to have an unhealthy diet and exercise regularly, than a well balanced diet and a sedentary lifestyle. That’s how good exercising is for you!!! Obviously…it is best to have a well balanced diet and exercise regularly.

*I found it ironic this morning on the news…the weatherman said…”it looks like it’s going to be a beautiful weekend…but maybe a little soggy”. Then he talked about how it was going to rain both Saturday and Sunday?!?!?!? In my mind…most Meteorologists say that it would be a nasty weekend…or an indoor weekend…but not say BEAUTIFUL WEEKEND with that influction in his voice if it was going to rain all weekend. I guess I am bummed because he got my hopes up for a split second!

*I watched Skeleton Key recently. It was CREEPY!!!! Up until I watched that movie…I always thought it would be cool to live in an old plantation house. NOT ANYMORE. I feel like stuff like that really exists if you mess with it. I don’t know…it kind of freaked me out. Did anyone else see it…and what did you think?

*Speaking of Movies…Steve and I are suckers for Sports Movies. We currently have been cutting back on going out to the movies because we are trying to save money for Europe. However, we HAD to go watch Glory Road. We had been looking forward to it for awhile. It was SO GOOD. Man it sparked things in me. It deals with race back in the 60’s and how that affected college basketball in particular. It makes me happy to know how far we have come in 40 years…and it makes me really sad how people were discriminated against back in the day. Just AWFUL. But I would highly recommend the movie!

*So we have this new band “Until June”, and they are SO AWESOME!!!! It is working with bands like this that makes me LOVE MY JOB!!! I can’t wait to release a radio single for them. You can check them out Here and Here. The music on these sites are just demos. We have some of the new music...and is SO GOOD!

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Double Mint Twins

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In our almost 5 years that we have worked together...and all of the same band T-Shirts that we have...Glam Jo and I have never come to work as twins. It happened today. So...we did what any normal hot music industry executives would do...we had a photo shoot!

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Monday, January 23, 2006

Not in the mood...

I just haven't felt like writing anything lately. Hopefully the words and desire will come back soon!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Bliss like a girl on Prom Day!

Last night I couldn’t fall asleep. Normally (being the grandma that I am) we are in bed around 10:30. Last night we watched a basketball game so we didn’t get into bed until 11:45. I watched TV until midnight and decided I needed to turn the TV off even though I wasn’t yet tired. I tossed and turned…and must have finally dozed off a little after 1am. A far cry from 10:30pm when the alarm goes off at 6:15.

Today, all day I have had butterflies in my stomach. The same kind of butterflies you get on an exciting day. The day of Prom, a sorority formal, a big date, your wedding day, etc. I’m having a hard time concentrating…I am generally just excited. It’s gorgeous outside…sunny…beautiful…the perfect day. (Well perfect day when it’s 66 degrees in January when you know it should only be 39 degrees.) All my excitement leads to tonight.

Who knew that I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep last night…or that I would be anxious all day long…when my best friend is coming into town!!!! No it isn’t the prom…but it might as well be in my book! Mary(Big B)Beth…or My Sweet B as I call her is coming to visit! That’s MaryBeth…1 word…no space…uppercase B!

Anyone who meets or knows MaryBeth will never forget her. She has such a sweet spirit that just brings everyone joy. She is funny and has a laugh you could only wish was your own. It is contagious…and cute…and everyone takes notice when she laughs. I’m sure strangers look at her when they hear her laugh…and wish they could know her. They wish they could be sitting next to her…tossing their heads back in laughter. She has the kindest soul, and makes you feel so welcome. She’s the type of person that makes you feel like you’re the only person in the world. She is everything that is good and wonderful in this world. And I will see her in less than 3 hours….OH BLISS!!!

I met MaryBeth at a sorority party the first week of school my sophomore year of college. We both pledged Tri Delta. While we were pledging it seemed like everyone else knew someone in the pledge class. But I didn’t…and MaryBeth didn’t. So we gravitated toward each other. And I now realize I am the luckiest girl in the world to have bonded with her during that time. Little did I know that she would come to mean so much to me. She was so ENCHANTING…and I wanted to spend every minute with her. And we practically did. We have wonderful memories from the sorority and outside the sorority. We had a great group of friends…but no one else was like my B. We lived together our senior year of college. It was the best year of my life! We had dance parties…many adventures (who knew an adventure was to be had at the convenient store on the corner)…some days we would even run away together. I miss running away with her. Sometimes we would literally go out the front door and just run. (Side note: don’t try to run away when you are both wearing flip flops…ouch!) We had no clue where we were going…or how far we would go…we would just RUN AWAY. Sometimes we would run away in her Grey truck Lou. Good ol’ Lou! Again…we had no clue where Lou was going to take us. We would just need to get away! Some probably think this is very silly…but we loved it!

MaryBeth is one person that just puts a smile on my face thinking about her. I feel like a part of my heart is dormant because I don’t have her in my every day life. What I wouldn’t give to have her around every day! But I am not complaining…I am just truly blessed to know her. It has been more than a year (UNACCEPTABLE) since I have seen her. That will never happen again. I have been in dire need of a MaryBeth fill for a long time. She will be here until Tuesday (unless I can talk her into staying longer), and I can’t help but feel like a kid on Christmas morning! So here’s to a bright spot in my life…MaryBeth…and to a weekend of finding adventures, reminiscing, and who knows…maybe even running away! I LOVE YOU B!!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

5 Guilty Pleasures

I was tagged by Sweet Meredith to do this meme. Here goes!

The Rules: Write a blog about 5 Guilty Pleasures. In the end you need to choose five people to be tagged and list their names.

1. Pop Culture: I love everything Pop Culture. Whether it’s Magazines (US Weekly, In Touch, People, etc.), TV Shows (Entertainment Tonight, Insider, the MTV in-depth celebrity shows, Cribs, etc.) or online websites (Pink Is the New Blog) I love reading about celebrities. What are they wearing? Who are they dating? Are they hiding a bump? What is their latest diet? I eat that stuff up…and I know I shouldn’t. They are regular people. But I can’t get enough!

2. Rump Shakin’ Booty Music!!! In the words of Kanye West in his song “Addiction” - ‘Why does everything that’s supposed to be bad…make me feel so good?’ This is how I feel with Booty Music! In the mainstream…pretty much every hip hop song is talking about something bad. But the way I feel about it is…if it has a dope beat…I don’t care what the heck it’s saying. I know that’s so wrong…but I can’t pass up a hot beat! I love that feeling you get inside that just makes you jump out of your seat and DANCE like no one else is around!!!!

3. Mark Mulder= HOT HOT HOT!!! I have a very safe crush on him! I just can’t help but be attracted to a guy that is an amazing pitcher and not to mention gorgeous. Baseball is my very favorite sport in the world…so to have that and a great looking guy! Man I can’t wait for baseball season to start!

4. Too much TV! Especially shows like Desperate Housewives, Grey’s Anatomy, The Bachelor, etc. that are controversial or involve other people’s relationships!

5. Unhealthy doses of Ice Cream! BRING IT ON! Especially if it’s my dad’s homemade or Blue Bell Ice Cream. I’m in…and I don’t mean for a scoop or two…give me a big huge bowl!!!

I’m tagging Karina, Joy, Nicole, Glam Jo and Andrea.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Not Alone

So I have been going thru this soul searching time while I am trying to make over my soul. Yesterday on my way to work…I found myself confused about life (an every day occurrence)…and I’m trying to figure out me. Figure out what will make me happy. What will cleanse my soul. All I could think about was Jesus. And HOW BAD I wanted to see Him and hug Him and talk to Him and have Him talk back to me. It was such a real feeling. Usually I am satisfied with knowing He is there and that He is ALWAYS listening to me and my heart. But yesterday I wanted Him to be seated next to me during my car ride. I wanted to interact with Him…and look at Him…and I wanted Him to tell me what I feel like I NEED to hear. Because He is the only person that truly knows me…Lord knows I can’t figure myself out. He doesn’t have to waste time getting to know me. There is no one else that knows me the way He does. And even though I was frustrated that I can’t physically see Him…it also warmed my heart having that feeling of longing for Him that I desire a lot of the time. It was true and pure. It made me feel like it was a step in the right direction. A lot of times I just want to talk to Steve or MaryBeth or my Dad or whoever…but this time the only person I wanted to talk to was Jesus. No one else will do. I guess I will just need to listen and trust that I will hear Him.

Monday, January 02, 2006


I am in dire need of a makeover. Not the kind you are thinking. Not the kind where you get your hair cut and colored, fun make-up and a new outfit and say “Ta-Da”! Even though that would be fun, and I wouldn’t turn it down. But I want a different kind of make over. The kind that makes over your soul. The problem is…I don’t really know what I need to do for that kind of makeover. Alone time out in the middle of no where with some paper and a handful of my colored sharpie’s sounds good. Or a couple of hours in a gymnastics gymnasium sounds good too. I think I need a change in life. A change in my routine. The problem is I like my routine. I don’t really want to change it…but then I will just continue where I am. I feel like I’m in a rut and just going through the motions. And I want to grow and change and live life more fully. Breathe in fresh air and twirl in the middle of a field of flowers. (Did I just write that OUT LOUD!) My mind wanders that way almost every day…then I snap back to reality. I just want to have some joy and fun in my life. And I do…I’m not complaining…I have a great life…I just need a change. But what’s stopping me from doing something new?!?! I don’t mean quit my job and move to a different country or anything like that. (Even though I like that option and would do it in a heartbeat…it’s just not realistic.) It could be as simple as joining a dance class…or volunteering somewhere…or setting aside 4 hours every Saturday for alone time. But that just takes time. Time that will take me away from my FABULOUS husband that I wish I could spend MORE time with. Dang work! But maybe that’s what needs to happen. I need to be happy with me so that I can make my husband happy. My New Year’s Resolution is to focus on the Positive. I used to be this way. But that girl has slowly gone away over the years. But I know she’s in there…and I want her back. So I need to do something for me…that edifies me…that makes me happy. I just hope it works. You guys have any ideas??
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