Makeover

I am in dire need of a makeover. Not the kind you are thinking. Not the kind where you get your hair cut and colored, fun make-up and a new outfit and say “Ta-Da”! Even though that would be fun, and I wouldn’t turn it down. But I want a different kind of make over. The kind that makes over your soul. The problem is…I don’t really know what I need to do for that kind of makeover. Alone time out in the middle of no where with some paper and a handful of my colored sharpie’s sounds good. Or a couple of hours in a gymnastics gymnasium sounds good too. I think I need a change in life. A change in my routine. The problem is I like my routine. I don’t really want to change it…but then I will just continue where I am. I feel like I’m in a rut and just going through the motions. And I want to grow and change and live life more fully. Breathe in fresh air and twirl in the middle of a field of flowers. (Did I just write that OUT LOUD!) My mind wanders that way almost every day…then I snap back to reality. I just want to have some joy and fun in my life. And I do…I’m not complaining…I have a great life…I just need a change. But what’s stopping me from doing something new?!?! I don’t mean quit my job and move to a different country or anything like that. (Even though I like that option and would do it in a heartbeat…it’s just not realistic.) It could be as simple as joining a dance class…or volunteering somewhere…or setting aside 4 hours every Saturday for alone time. But that just takes time. Time that will take me away from my FABULOUS husband that I wish I could spend MORE time with. Dang work! But maybe that’s what needs to happen. I need to be happy with me so that I can make my husband happy. My New Year’s Resolution is to focus on the Positive. I used to be this way. But that girl has slowly gone away over the years. But I know she’s in there…and I want her back. So I need to do something for me…that edifies me…that makes me happy. I just hope it works. You guys have any ideas??