Not Alone

So I have been going thru this soul searching time while I am trying to make over my soul. Yesterday on my way to work…I found myself confused about life (an every day occurrence)…and I’m trying to figure out me. Figure out what will make me happy. What will cleanse my soul. All I could think about was Jesus. And HOW BAD I wanted to see Him and hug Him and talk to Him and have Him talk back to me. It was such a real feeling. Usually I am satisfied with knowing He is there and that He is ALWAYS listening to me and my heart. But yesterday I wanted Him to be seated next to me during my car ride. I wanted to interact with Him…and look at Him…and I wanted Him to tell me what I feel like I NEED to hear. Because He is the only person that truly knows me…Lord knows I can’t figure myself out. He doesn’t have to waste time getting to know me. There is no one else that knows me the way He does. And even though I was frustrated that I can’t physically see Him…it also warmed my heart having that feeling of longing for Him that I desire a lot of the time. It was true and pure. It made me feel like it was a step in the right direction. A lot of times I just want to talk to Steve or MaryBeth or my Dad or whoever…but this time the only person I wanted to talk to was Jesus. No one else will do. I guess I will just need to listen and trust that I will hear Him.